Poetic Resurrection

A reading of the poem Silhouette from Inspire Me: Perception and a commentary of the true story behind the traumatic poem.
Silhouette
A dark shadow appears­–soul shakes, the body suspends.  A story of an altered spirit who’ll manifest soon in the deepest of night. Shadow essence two-week visit encompasses my thoughts and sleep. If present, she’ll be safe.  Who do you speak of spirit? A man’s silhouette in the early morning as the streetlights gleam upon glistening muscle tone. The sun peeks as my roommate dreams, unconscious of his gaze. In the darkness, a gun rises in his hand, aims at roommate’s head.  Silence takes over as the smoke aura scars her fate.  Dream propels my slumber and go to her room, “If I’m present, she’ll be safe”, repeats.  Sunlight dances on my face as the night’s story whispers away.  She awakens, “Had that dream again, didn’t you?” Yes. Three full moons calendar the sky.  Gotham called for her home, she’s safe.  Chitown childhood friends summer evening visit—Sunset Strip. Summer heat, sleep half nude as evening completes at midnight. Vocal and joyful friends jest of a man at the window where the drapes bellow. Amusement drains the night as the muscles gleaming silhouette appears.  She runs into my bedroom, gun points at third eye—forced out of comfort into the lifeless living room.  Essence extends my body as I guard the front door. “Think you’re going somewhere? He shouts.  Gun points to sit by piano. The silent melody piano bench where I abide.  “On the floor” he casts me as he bares my skin from sheet.  Little sister weeps and window slams, fearing discovery of his carnal acts. Guilt survival mission defuses the present. Escaping—leap two steps—first landing. Leap again, gun at head. Blinding movie screen of my life flashes steals my sight. Land on corner of step and propelled onto the ground. “Not dying, not tonight!” Street or parking lot?  A straight shot I will not be as I hide besides cars until I can jump concrete fence–divides the building.  Footsteps dissipate. The blood curling screams echo in the distance. Climb many staircases and a man stands with two dogs. “Please call the police.” I beg. “I think my friend’s dead.”  His girlfriend’s pink robe drapes a childhood fear.  We hide. Police state, “stay inside”.  Helicopters beaming lights, treble sirens and watchful dogs ease chaotic street.  An hour and a half, a knock. Police state: “He escaped—assaults another woman and stole her car”.  Friends approach in a cloud of disbelief sobbing. They heard my fall, calling–no answer and saw my death in his hands. Police, he’ll return. Neighbor held us safe, and we slept on her floor. My scarred friends left the next day. Never went back, he never paid. Warning of silhouette but I didn’t understand. Premonition and it’s real impact.  Checking doors and windows for a year but I know I saved my friends because—I was there.
 
 
A String Of Hope by Mikael Hellman
Link: https://filmmusic.io/song/7077-a-string-of-hope
License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license
 

This meditation can be done at any time 
Trauma meditation
This affirmation meditation can be done at any time but is suggested to do it in a quiet place where you won't be disturbed.  If you find it too relaxing please do not listen while driving or handling heavy machinery. If your time and focus permits feel the love coming from your heart center. Think of someone or something that brings you love or joy, a person, a place, a pet and repeat the affirmations.
“Bad things do happen, how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself.” – Walter Anderson
Talk a deep breath and breathe out slowly.
(repeat 3 times)
I am Safe, I feel safe
I have value – I see value in others
I accept who I am, I accept others
I am patient with my healing
I am not alone; my life is abundant
I am not my trauma – I am enough
I see beauty in myself and others
I am healing. I feel the healing.
When I fall down, I bounce back up again.
I am kind to myself. I am kind to others.
Much love and blessings.
 
A String Of Hope by Mikael Hellman
Link: https://filmmusic.io/song/7077-a-string-of-hope
License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license
 

A 5-minute meditation on hope with affirmations coinciding with the podcast Perceptions of Hope.
What is being hopeful? Waiting for an event or situation to work out for us. To hope that we can have control over a situation outside of us, which is out of our control.  Let's have hope help us. Help quiet the mind. Bring a smile. A warm feeling in this moment. Hope lightens a stressful time. It's a feeling of freedom from a current challenging event.
And as author Laini Taylor stated... “Hope can be a powerful force. Maybe there's no actual magic in it, but when you know what you hope for most and hold it like a light within you, you can make things happen, almost like magic.”   
Make sure you're in a quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.  Either sitting up with straight spine, hands-on lap, or lying down with palms facing up, in an open gesture for accepting.
Comfort is key. Close your eyes.Take a deep breath in through the nose expanding your belly for a count of 4 and hold for the count of 4 and slowly release to the count of 4.
Two more times.
Now focus on your natural breathing.I am hopeI feel hopefulI love and accept myself
I love and accept othersI am safeI feel safeI am strongI feel strongI am compassionI feel compassion
If your mind starts wondering it’s okay just bring your focus back to the breath.(repeat affirmations 2 more times)
Take a deep breath in and slowly exhale take your time and open your eyes.May this beautiful day be filled with hope and compassion. Many blessings 
Sincerely by Kevin MacLeod
Link: https://filmmusic.io/song/5033-sincerely
License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license

Perceptions of Hope
Here we are in 2021. It's a new beginning, let's start this year right.  What gives you hope? A change in belief systems? A change in self?  Writing New Year resolutions that honestly most of us don’t keep.
“The very least you can do in your life is figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof.” – Barbara Kingsolver
 
Music
After the Fall - Purple Planet
 
Sincerely by Kevin MacLeod
Link: https://filmmusic.io/song/5033-sincerely
License: https://filmmusic.io/standard-license

Hello and welcome to the Poetic Resurrection podcast I'm your host Sonia Iris Lozada.
In this podcast series, we will discuss various subjects about perceptions with little humor. It's our way of having fun as we learn to ask self-reflecting questions. No particular belief systems are going to be addressed, just experiences, information, and quotes about perceptions. Tune In to our episodes where will have some guests and concepts covering different perceptions in various genres and mediums. Be it books, philosophy, psychology, music, film, and then we’ll end with a poem. A separate meditation will be recorded in conjunction with several podcast presentation.
 
Butterflies and ZebrasWritten by Rick Sippel, Gina Amador, Teo Manzella, Rocky Quintana, Steve LunnPerformed by The Blue CherriesCourtesy of Silent Bay Entertainment