Thursday Sep 01, 2022
The last couple of weeks have been emotionally and mentally challenging. Not physically, even though I know that's something I should pay more attention to.
Why are enjoyable moments in our lives fatiguing? I did a list.
Traveling—exhausting. I wish they could beam me to where I want to go. As much as I enjoy being in different destinations. The airports, airplanes, ground transportation. Much of it is hurry and wait. On my trip to Chicago, the airplane from Burbank airport took off an hour late. Which I missed my connecting flight in Phoenix and had to wait six hours before getting on another plan. I was traveling for fourteen hours and I was tired. I arrived in Chicago the next day.
Visiting my parents—loving. I miss them and wish I could visit more often. They're in Chicago and I live in Los Angeles so I've been going back every six to eight months.
Auditions - Exciting! I've had three self-tapes and one held at the casting office. Two commercials, a movie and a TV pilot. I love auditions. I'd love booking the jobs more.
I was wondering why I felt mentally and emotionally exhausted.
Emotionally because my parents are elderly and I want to make sure I'm there for them. Is there more I can do? How do I make their lives easier? I guess all I could do is to be there for them. I send them blessings and love every night. When parents get elderly, that question you don't want to ask is: Will this be the last time I see them? It breaks my heart when I think of it.
Well traveling. Anyone that travels often knows the airports and all transportation can wear on our mental and physical energy. That's why so many of us need a vacation from the vacation. I've found that I need a day or two off from traveling just to center myself.
Leaking pipe. I arrived back on Tuesday night to find my bedroom had a leaking pipe, which I didn't notice because I had shoes on. Then, as I prepared to go to bed by taking a shower after a day of travel, I stepped bare footed onto a wet rug. I called the manager, and he got a plumber out that night. It was 9pm when I called him. The plumber came—a nice guy and left around midnight. I was exhausted and went to bed with the wet rug. The next day when I woke up, and it smelled like mildew. Wow, how long has this leak been going on? It didn't smell the night before and believe me, I would have smelled it. So, the next day, I didn't go to work, but I need to take out anything I needed from the room so they can do the repairs.
As tired as I was, I wasn't upset. That was surprising with everything that's been going on. I just accepted that what is, is. Getting upset wasn't going to get me anywhere. I just wanted to sleep.
I was looking around the internet to find more info on being exhausted and I found this information from Healthline. It's a very good article and I've put the link below if you want to read further.
"Generally, "mental" tends to refer to cognitive skills, like thinking, memory, decision-making, and problem-solving. "Emotional," on the other hand, has to do with feelings, including your ability to identify, process, and express them.
You might notice emotional exhaustion when navigating difficult, painful, or unwanted feelings, such as:
Both mental and emotional exhaustion can leave you feeling detached, unmotivated, apathetic, and trapped. The challenges you're facing might seem impossible to overcome, and you might feel too drained to keep trying.
If burnout comes to mind, you're on the right track — burnout can stem from emotional and mental fatigue."
With all that has happened in the last few weeks and its inconveniences, because truth be told. Life is good. I appreciate any insights I receive. I meditated on why all this was happening and all that would come up with is self-care. So often we lead our lives with "having to do this or that" and leave our welfare for the last item on this list, if we even list it. So, I'm going to take care of my mental, emotional and physical health. My book releases and sad to say the podcasts are still here. I can work on it later.
The poem for this week is Love and Blessings from Inspire Me Series: Book 1 & 2
Overwhelm your being
When worrying about the family
And wanting to care for them
When sleep evades
When thoughts repeat
When finances diminish
And needs remain unmet
When feeling defeated
When feeling alone
When feeling fear
That life isn't fair
Doesn't cost anything
Brings us to the present
Sending love and blessings to you
Music: Passing Time by Kevin Macleod